I Am Trying my Best to Be...
Trying to be a "religious Christian"...is frustrating and spiritually dissatisfying because of the mixing of Law with Grace, trying to keep the religious rules and the demands of the Law. Religious living is living in bondage to man-made philosophies and doctrines.
Being a born again believer...living in Grace is fulfilling and spiritually satisfying because Jesus has done it all regarding our receiving and maintaining our salvation. Grace living is living in the freedom of Christ.
Knowing Christ's accomplishment via the cross and His resurrection, understanding His Grace and who you are in Him, you will never fall for another deception of religion as to what you have to "do" to gain favor with God. You are His child, there is nothing to you can "do" to get there...You Are Already There!
Stop the trying to "do" to "be" and "be" the "being" you already are.